It finally happened. My youngest woman-child tied the knot. Life was chaos but it seems she had a “Chaos Coordinator” who made sure things ran smoothly for her. There was really never much for me to do since she had a crew of friends to do that for her. I was glad for it. I know myself and everything would have been crazy if it had been left up to me. I know my limitations. I made a point of hanging out with family and friends I hadn’t seen in a while. Apparently that was the wrong thing to do. Can I catch a break? I guess she wanted me to gush more on her and maybe I should have. I always felt a bit in the way.
What would be a family get together without a bit of drama? Anyone else have that person in your family that you can never please, the one that criticizes you all the time? I have one of those and I call her, Mom. She has always been a bit like that towards me but as she has gotten older (she is 82), the filters are off. I had to make a tough decision this past week to distance myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love my mother but she brings a lot of negativity and toxicity into my life. I wish I could say it isn’t so but there it is. I try to be better with my own children. I’d like to think I work extra hard to make sure mine don’t every feel the same way I am made to at times. I am so thankful that I have a sibling whose family is the exact opposite. They surrounded me with so much love and support. Isn’t that how it should be?
Getting back to work was not as bad as I thought it would be after being off a week but I am at a point that I want to do something different. I feel like I am in my 20’s again trying to figure it all out. Isn’t it something to be on this journey of self-discovery? A better me. That is what I am working on: healthy eating, healthy lifestyle, healthy mind. Welcome to my world.
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